A thought from Gabrielle...

hey this is gabrielle i just want 2 tell u how i feel about the whole situation with mel.It does not really bother me because i know she can do it and i don't have any doubts in her.I help her as much as i can and check up onher 2 see how she is doing.The thing that scared me was that it came out of no where.She had a bump on her neck but,i didn't know it was that serious.

Today mel picked me up early 2 go get scarves cause is going 2 start losing hair next wednesday and there was a wig store buy my school and it had a stupid name it was called Bravadas and the open sign was not lite so there was a paper on the door and mel comes back and says"the store closed down".I broke out laughing. I laughed because of the name BRA va DA...sounds like a bra store.

After mel is cancer free the whole family is going on a cruise.That would be my first time on cruise in my whole life.Before the baby mel dad and me went 2 thenick hotel so that is the closet thing 2 a cruise 4 me.

I will post sometimes for mel if she is not feeling good.

The last drive into work for a while...

Today I brought my cruiser back to work. I have to buy jumper cables this morning, take my gear out and clean it. I got myself together, got into my cruiser and headed into work. I turned onto Curlew and the tears began flowing. I mean FLOWING...I called my friend Lauren at the police department. She wanted to make me feel better but couldn't no matter what she said and she knew this. I could not have a stiff drink later NOTHING, we laughed and said I would resort to slurpees for the next six months. I felt like I was giving back my whole career with just bringing my patrol car back. I cried like Olivia cries when someone takes her baby doll, today something so simple hurt me so bad. I know that I still have my career and I know that I have SEVERAL people praying and supporting me, but nothing is the same than going to work. Once at work, Lauren and I laughed like always through a readoff session, just waiting to get the look from the Sergeant to be quiet.

We laugh and joke around about not wanting to work and not wanting to stay employed where we are employed (this has NEVER been my case!!!) I have never been so thankful for my career as well as the things I have been blessed with.

I got home from dropping off my cruiser and made an AMAZING enchilada dinner. I have to say it was one of the best meals I have made in a long time. Darren and I ate dinner and we watched, My Sister's Keeper. I have been holding off on watching that for a long time and I am glad that I did.

I am enjoying a quiet night on the couch, while Darren works out in the garage with a friend of his. While on the couch I will be researching on how to wrap scarves and make head wraps since I have ONE WEEK until I loose my hair! I am sick over this, but I guess it is a bump in the road. I will give others good laughs with how big my head is....