This morning I went to ENT Dr. Anthony. He walked in, introduced himself and checked out my lump on my neck. He seemed like a very nice doctor, yet I was shaking and terrified of what may come out of the appointment. He asked me first if I had the following symptoms, weightloss (CHECK) fatigue(CHECK)nightsweats(CHECK)and swollen lymphnodes(CHECK)...now that I told him yes to EVERY symptom, I got very scared. Dr. Anthony walked out of the room, returning to tell me that he was going to take a needle biopsy of the lymphnode on the left side of my neck.
The needle and the metal aparatus to take the biopsy was the BIGGEST needle I have ever seen! I mean I gave birth last year and was not nearly as scared as I was when I saw this needle. He numbed my neck with a local anethesia and put this HUGE needle in taking out only cells. There was no liquid just cells. He ordered for me to have a CT scan of my neck with contrast which I did right after my appointment.
Before I left Dr. Anthony's office, my mom asked one question, "What could this be? Please be honest with us!" His answer was, "It could be an infected lymphnode or it could be lymphoma." Either way he said he had to remove it. Of course, I hear lymphoma and ask a zillion questions. The one answer that I was satisfied with, is, "With treatment, you can overcome it." I left the office knowing that the next week was going to be the longest week of my life. My next appointment was scheduled for April 28 and I was going to get my results then.
I have a hard time with things like this, I read how people are to me when I first meet them, then realized that everyone was OVER comforting. Like they already knew that something was wrong. We will see on the 28th.
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