Today is the day...

I worked all night and thankfully I was super busy with reports from the night before. My mind thankfully was in work mode and I knew I needed to bust and move to get things done so that I got off of work on time. Every weekday morning at 6am I call Darren and make sure he is awake and getting the girls ready for school. This morning I was shaking when I called him, why? I still don't know. Possibly because I knew in 2 hours we were going to learn if our lives were going to be the same or a huge mess...

At 730am I met Darren at my mom's house. Olivia was in his arms and she was so excited to see me. We tried to eat breakfast and were not able to eat but a few bites because both of our stomaches were in knots.

As we drove the 3 minutes to the office from my mom's house, it was silent in the truck. What do you say? I sat right next to him in the center seat of the truck. He was playing with my hair and whispered to me, "No matter what we are going to get through this, and I love you, you are my world!" I needed this more than he knew at that moment.

We walked into the office, holding hands, sweaty hands.

They called us into the room and we waited for the doctor. Darren was talking and talking. My one question to him was, "You are nervous aren't you." He said, "Of course, that is why I am talking and you are not."



Dr Anthony came in and went over the results of the needle biopsy. It showed cells that are Hodgkin's lymphoma. He stated he needed to remove the lymphnode as soon as possible. Of course we asked many questions and what our life was going to come to. I sat in the room with tears rolling down my face. I had nothing to say and thankfully Darren asked all the questions for me. We scheduled surgery for the next morning.



We left the office and Darren showed more emotions as the day went on. I was clearly numb to what I was just told. Many phone calls and many emails to family and friends explaining the results.



I finally was able to attempt to go to sleep after 2pm. I was emotionally and physcially exhausted from working the night before.


I woke up at 630pm and had dinner with the whole family. Jose came over to support Darren which he needed.



I could not imagine the feelings that Darren was feeling. It must be so tough for him.
I am so thankful for the support so far and I know that there is SO much more to learn with all of this, and I know that my support will just grow!