This morning I got up well before the alarm clock went off and got the girls ready and we had a knock at the door. Darren's friend Pat showed up this morning to wish us well with my first treatment. It truly meant alot to us that he went out of his way this morning to come by. Darren and I took the girls to school and stopped by chicfila. We went to the doctor about 30 minutes early.
My nurse that was assigned to me did not seem as a morning person but she came around by the end of the 4 hours I was in the chemotherapy room.
They attempted to access my port which still has dermabond on it and still is not completely healed. The nurse tried the first time then told me that she needed to use a longer needle into the port. This hurt so bad by the second stick that I was in tears. I was embarrassed to be crying but I am human. The premediciations were started, a steroid, two nausea medications and benedryl. While these were infusing, I met with Dr. Hano. He gave us the glorious news that the lymphoma was NOT in my bone marrow.
Back into the chemo room, they began my four medications AVBD. I was clearly informed that I will be loosing my hair about the time of my second treatment. I was so overwhelmed with everything going on that I was exhausted by the time everything was over. Darren left for a little while to get my prescriptions and I went to sleep while the remaining medications dripped into me. I woke up and I wanted to leave so bad.
I called my mom to see where she was with my older sister, Sheri. They met us for lunch at Panera Bread and I knew it was time for me to go home to rest. Darren and I picked up Olivia and shocking enough I felt ok. It was after I put Olivia to bed, I felt like I was getting the flu. I forced myself into the shower since I always feel good after. I had about 10 hairs come out and I had a complete meltdown. Darren now was not able to say much and I freaked out. There was NOTHING he could say or do that would ease this anger and sadness that had come over me. This lasted about an hour, exhausted, I got comfortable and went to bed.
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