Saturday...

My aches and pains are starting more and more, I thought for a long time this is all in my head and still some what do. I stopped taking motrin on a daily basis so that I could have a taste what each day was going to be like. I am constantly tired. I thought forever that my fatigue was from being on midnight shift and I am now learning per my doctor my aches and pains as well as my tiredness is cancer related fatigue. It is 9am on Saturday I slept for 8 hours and I feel like I have been awake for 24 hours.

I have my mother in law in town and of course I push myself further to do things with my family while she is here. These are precious times right now to me! She has been the best blessing in my life away from Olivia, Darren and Gabrielle.

Yesterday I has a PET scan done. It was an experience. The girls that were working with me, Karen and Jess were amazing and they will be getting a Thank you card. I have been traumatized this last week with the amount of needles in my arms and how I am a "hard stick." I have brusing on booth arms and it HURTS! They did an amazing job with sticking me the first time and it not being bad. After the IV was in, they injected radioactive stuff in me, then I sat in the comfort room for 45 minutes. I had to drink contrast that was mixed with Crystal Light. It was so GROSS...After the time was up I changed and layed in the tube with my arms over my head for 20 minutes which felt like an hour and 20 minutes. My arms were numb and I was aching in my lower back. They said I would get the results on Monday but guess what, I will be on a cruise!!!!

Last night we told Gabrielle what was going on. I told Darren as we were walking in that he needed to tell her and I could not talk without crying. He told her and she had some questions about things. We talked about words that she may not understand and that she can google them with me so she can read about it. D told her I was going to loose my hair and her immediate reaction was she wanted to shave her head with me! What an amazing child! On the way home from her mom's house she asked me if she is not in school if she could go to my treatments with me. She did not cry but I think she is numb or it is going to hit her when I begin treatment and she sees the effects of it.